New beginnings. (Trying harder literature)

 Dear reader,

I’ve always thought of this blog as sorta like my baby. I fed it with words, clothed it with fan art and sent it out into the world so it could have its own experiences of love and criticism and everything that really comes with the modern day internet.

Here I’ve always let the thoughts flow out of me even if they where complete garbage because even though this blog has a following now, it always used to and always will be a place I unload eeeeeverything. And if you’ve read my blog- Geez do you know I over share. But that’s the beauty of it. Over sharing is just taking out the filter, a piece at a time, of whatever your holding back. And its these moments of, Sugar did I really just say that, or in my case, I can’t believe I just sent an email too over three and a half thousand people about how In love I am with a person that only exists in my head and on paper but I proceed to plan my next 20 years of my life with this gay vampire (hello Baz my love, mwah) in writing for them all too see, that we realise these thoughts are all welcome and we feel better. 

It’s how I’ve learned to cope. And I have realised that when I do go too long without writing a poem or writing a blog or just scribbling down book annotations or songs I want to listen to- I do get anxious. And that’s because I’m not an over sharer in person, I’m probably an under sharer if I’m honest. The only time I feel like I can truly say every little thing that’s unloaded off the huge steam train that it my train of thought, is when I grab a pen. Or in this case my old crappy windows -8 laptop that still has a sticker on it that reads

 ‘Alex Turner is my boyfriend’ but boyfriend is spelt boyfreind. 

Bloomin’ dodgey redbubble sellers. 

I have filled notepads and documents and post-it’s with writings. I mean, just call me Alexander Hamilton. And when I’ve written them, I will probably never look at it again but that doesn’t matter because I know it’s somewhere, somewhere not in my mind. 

The only other time I feel like this is when I crack open a book (why is that phrase crack? If anyone here actually Cracks open their book please seek help). But as I’ve said a million times, reading takes you away. Books and me we have an understanding. I give it my time, try to understand it and I don’t actually crack it, and in return it picks me up off my arm chair and opens that secret loose panel in the wood floor I’ve never noticed before and takes me down the rabbit hole. Reading for me is the biggest comfort I’ll probably ever find. Worlds shit? Pick up a book. Too much homework? Pick up a book. Going through a big event in your teens? Pick up a book. 

Life’s too short to be worried, just as it’s too short to not use that quality reading time up. 

I’m going through something right now, something really sad and hard and it’s meant that for the last month I really haven’t been able to fully read a book. That’s when you know it’s serious haha. I read almost up to the end of the call but didn’t get there because the last 30 pages where too stressful for me to handle at that moment.

I’ve attempted to fix the things that was worrying me a lot and I’ve been able to read about 90 pages of my new book shielded that I got in my FairyLoot box. It’s probably a great book but I’ve been having trouble reading it because my mind slips away onto other things and all I wanna do is close it. So I’m gonna try really hard this week to read more of it and then I’ll report back but that’s not the whole point of this blog post.

In my sad time I’ve been watching Gilmore girls to cheer me up and it’s the best. It always has been but agh in this season of autumn and winter months and raiiiin and leeeeaaavvves it is just the perfect vibe. And I don’t say vibe but you know what I mean. And in this show Rory Gilmore loves to read books, but she reads books that are quite classical and high level. And I’ve never been able to read classics but I’ve decided I’m really going to try. I just can’t help thinking that I’m wasting my reading on some trashy books sometimes. And I think the only way to change that is by challenging myself. So, I’m challenging myself. 

Today I’m going on a charity shop hunt around town to find some great reads. Wish me good luck :) 

If your going through something I really recommend challenging yourself to something. It doesn’t have to be this but just try to think of something you’ve always wanted to try and do it. Do it for you.  

Have a lovely autumn day everyone, 

Until next time,

Love 

Issy

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