im not going to say sorry

day 10,
I didn't write because I had nothing to write about.
now, I do.

Do you want to know why I keep saying that this year I'm going to be less materialistic?
If no, then fair enough. if you do read my blog: why I'm not excited for Christmas.

I was holding the real reason back because it was too personal but I need to say it or ill bottle it up.


There is a week left of school, and then I'm off for 3 whole weeks! This is the good nows I'm trying to focus on. The bad news is that my dad is in debt -lots- and is really stressed out which is stressing me out. Also, I have to buy everyone presents and have close to no money.


(family do not read on if you are reading)


this is my plan;
buy my sister a makeup brush that she wants, but go to TKmax and see if you can get it cheaper. =£7
buy my dad oven gloves off amazon= £11
buy my mum Christmas tea and a lush bathbomb=£>10
buy my other sister the body butter she wants for a= £10
buy my mums boyfriend and my dads girlfriend choclate=£3
buy wrapping from poundland=£2
total----£43
I have £25
My mum said she would give me a 20 if I did all the housework while I'm off school.
that's all good, but the problem is my dad may be fined £120 this Christmas and I feel really, really bad because it is (in a way) my fault.


so normally every Christmas, I would ask for £40 from my dad to get everyone a Christmas present.
but this year I can't because it will feel like robbing him. Do you know what I mean?
So, instead I'm using my savings which I'm not crazy happy about but oh well.


Wouldn't it be great if there was a website called good news and it would tell you all the good things that have happened the day? very random, I know but it just popped up in my head.


I take a look at the driver next to me...
he's just the same.

     girl with thoughts
                  x


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